Why Why Why

Why did you delete me from your facebook list? Why did you delete the photos of us? Why can't we just be friends? Why did you have to do that? Why Why Why???

I didn't expect you would do that to me. Did I done anything wrong or offended you in some way which I don't know? Maybe you know that I have been viewing your profile & heard from your friends that I am asking how have you been or something, so you decided to remove me from your list as I am intruding your privacy.

I do not have any intentions. I just want to know how have you been doing, that's all... This is the only way that we can get connected & you even break this connection. Why do you have to do that, I mean its not necessarily. Ok, I know I don't have the right to ask why you do this & that. I do not need to concern about you & you do not need to concern me also. We are just strangers, not even friends now.

All this while, I have been a very very stubborn person. The more you want me to retreat, the more I bounce back. I don't listen to any of my friends advice, I insist on doing it my way. I let myself sunk deep down into the sea. There's a float for me to catch, but I don't want. I want to swim & swim & swim with all my might. I know I can still reached the shore in time (Knowing you will turn back 1 day, no matter how long it takes) But I am wrong. Before I reached, I am already breathless. I am almost dead. Why do I make myself look so ugly in front of you & others? I am degrading myself sigh...

What I can say now, is to take one step at a time. I hate thinking of you now. Don't worry, I am not like you who has a small & petty heart. I am always very forgving de. I will not do something that makes you embarrassed or something. If you do this to me, I will not imagine will I do that to you also. Argh... Anyway I am not this kind of person. I am not a bad girl. You can do whatever you like if it makes you happy. As long you don't get me involved, that's ok liao.