Late Night Sleep

15th December 09' (Tuesday)

In the past from primary school, secondary school, ITE, a working adult (3 to 4 yrs+), I will be in bed at 10pm punctually.

I hardly experienced sleepless nights & will keep on yawning after 10pm. Lately or should I say within the past 1 yr +, I had become a changed person in my sleeping habits. I only either sleep at 11pm+ or near to 12am which is a weekday. Imagine I got to work the next day, how will I have enough sleep? It's not that I don't wish to sleep, but even if I closed my eyes, I wouldn't be in dreamland yet.

On the weekend of a Sat, there's a time I sleep at 3am. That was when me & him are in M'sia around 9pm+ & come back around this timing. It's very abnormal for me to sleep at such a late timing. Perhaps I couldn't make myself tired enough, that's why. I am not afraid of sleepless nights when he's by my side. Now the moment that I can't fall asleep, he will appear in my mind. I will think back of all the happy memories we had together. It's so hurtful to think of this, especially when I & him are no longer together now =x


I know I am at fault. I didn't realise my mistakes & even repent it until you suggest a breakoff with me. I don't believe it won't hurt you. You said you got no more feelings in me, you are tired. Yes, you are tired & the love for me you had is not as strong as before. But I don't don't don't believe you had never drop a tear when we break off. You are a stubborn man & I am a stubborn woman. Both of us are stubborn! Sigh...


Why can't things work out to be a more better one? There is ways we can solve it together. You only carry it by your ownself, where's my share? I know as a guy, your thinking is you should be the one who is carrying & bearing it, shouldn't let your girl to worry about this things. But do you know that you are not a superman? You are only a Panda. Don't worry, I am not in a foul mood or throwing my temper when I am writing this. My mood belongs to a calm one.


I had sign up for a free talk (3 Feb 2010) at the Jurong Regional Library. I know its still very far, but harmless to participate right? Maybe can get to know more people, expand my social circle. I also feel like attending "Calligraphy Classes". There's so many short talks/courses which I wish to attend. Hope the timing fits my schedule =)