SBS Bus No.254

16th December 09' (Wednesday)

After knocking off from work, this is the bus that I will take to Boon Lay Mrt Station if my colleague doesn't drive me out.

The whole journey from my workplace till Boon Lay, it takes 45 mins exactly. If you are fetching me directly from office till home, it's even earlier then 10 minutes or something. I am not bothered about the timing that I can reach home, as I am not in a rush. It's just that the whole journey seems like a very very long & lonely one, that other then looking outside at the window, my mind is filled up by "You"... Tears will slowly rolled down from my eyes. I hate this crying scene. What's wrong with me?

I thought I had already get used to it. I mean won't shed my tears easily. Even if I think of you, smile will emerged instead of tears. Why??? I know one day, you will be meeting me up to return my stuff. Will that be the 1st & last meet up after our breakup? I wonder should I ask you this question or just keep it to myself. Nowadays the weather is quite unpredictable. It can be very humid & become a rainy day later. I was more worried for rainy day as I wonder are you on your way to work or knocking off from work? It's unsafe for riders to ride in heavy rain, roads are very slippery.

When I was in the lorry on the way to work, I saw a bike in front of me at a traffic stop. There's this couple which the girl looks more thinner then me & her boyfriend is also a thin man. I can see the girl telling her boyfriend that her thigh is having a blue black or something & its pain. Her boyfriend immediately rub for her & she push away his hand, feeling more pain or something. This scene makes me remind of you again & I had the same action as the girl too. When I had a blue black, you also rubbed for me. It will heal more faster & blood won't clot. Usually I won't do anything about it, I just let it dissapear.

Can I stop thinking of you at the time being? I think it's difficult for me to do that now. The more I don't wish to think of you, the more I think of you. Even this upcoming weekend going to Malacca, its a place where you & I went before. How to not to think? LaLaLa.... =x