An Emotional Entry

10th December 09' (Thursday)

I am back to work after 2 days leave. As usual, there's a lot of paperwork waiting for me to settle it.

Yesterday night, I got a bit of difficulty sleeping. I am tired, but just can't drop to sleep. I toss & turned... I even listen to the FM tuner of my old MP3 player, read some magazines, it still doesn't help. The worse thing is, I will think of "Him". I don't mean thinking of him is a bad thing, but I really don't wish to make myself dazed even when I want to sleep, though I do miss him.

During the early afternoon (Yesterday) I had read a book "His Needs, Her Needs" It's a book for marriage couples on how to make their relationship sizzles more. Ok, I know I am not married yet. But somehow it do explains what are the "Men's Needs & Women's Needs" Quite interesting hehe...  I read again since I am not able to sleep. Slowly I start to fall asleep at 11pm+.

Without him in my days, I am slowly getting used to it. I can't deny that some minutes of a day, I will have him in my thoughts. The memories of us are a beautiful one. What he gave to me, I have been treasuring it all this while. I wonder when I am thinking of him, did he think of me too? Maybe yes, maybe no.

The worker "Ah Ong" saw me & exclaim " Xiao Mei! Why are you getting thinner & thinner? You never eat rice is it?" I smile & said "Ya lor. Never eat rice, cuz I eat noodles ma". Both of us are conversing in Mandarin then. When I said eat noodles in Mandarin "Chi Mian", he listen until become "Shi Nian" haha... Then he mentioned "Ru Guo Shi Nian, Wo Da Ta Liang Ba". I just laughed & say to my ownself "Wo Shi Zhen De Shi Nian Le" =(

Ah Ong told me he saw "Him" in a motorbike shop at AMK few times. I pretend nothing has happened & just say "Ya lor, cuz he stay nearby there ma". Well... Now his bike is his official wife, has upgraded from a mistress status.