Thoughts Of Him

14th December 09' (Monday)

When I wake up in the morning, the 1st thing that comes into my mind is "Him".

When I am crossing the road, I saw the SBS Bus (No.74) that goes to his place. When I was in the lorry passing by another side of the Tuas area, it's the road path we ride in to M'sia. In front there's a car which the brand is "Suzuki", it's your bike brand. My mind is consisting of "You, You, You". You are not able to escape from my mind, I am being poisoned by "You".

Is this a good sign or a bad sign? In my sense, good sign means I am not those kind of girls who can forget our love so easily & the good things you had done for me as a boyfriend. Bad sign is, you are no longer by my side & I should move on. Thinking of you doesn't help in anything, I only lose concentration on my work.


I am a well behaved girl these days. Almost all weekends are packed with programs. This is what you want me to be right? Maybe you will want me back after a year or so, after you had see how I had changed in some aspects. Will you want me back?

If it do happens 1 day, I will not be asking you this question. You will be the one who asked me this. It seems like I am knocking myself on the wall, knowing it hurts but I still knock on it. Argh... I am tired physically & emotionally. How long do I still need to take not to drop my tears for you? I don't know the answer, don't know...

Perhaps it's a Monday today, that's why I feel everything is not right. For the day, I am always thinking of you. I even shed my tears again. I shouldn't have do that. It's not I wanted but I can't control it.