He gave a last reply "Don't say so chim. Worry Me". Chim meh? I didn't state any profound words in my last reply. Funny sia =x Anyway, I stop my reply.
A lot of things has been running through my mind. When he mentioned "25th May" (I don't care this is the day or other days), why should I give him a chance in meeting up on the date he required! When I asked him on a day to meet up before, did he fulfill it? NO right??? What rights do you have & still want me to listen to you! If you had given me a chance on that very fateful day, I might be able to considered it. Now? Forget it!!!
If I heed accordingly to what he wants, I am losing my pride! Llosing pride is 1 thing, but I must let myself know I am not a puppet that is controlled by him! He want left & I go left. He want right & I go right or whatever. You think I am that obedient? Yes, I am in the past when we are couples. Now it's different.
Maybe breaking off with me or deleting me away from FB, I can understand the intentions, though I am not feeling very happy about it. I don't think I am able to forget how he can step into a new relationship that fast. Thinking of "Michelle & Him Together" irks me.
I don't know is he really really realise his mistakes or just bcuz "Michelle" dump him or whatever, he is so alone & need someone to accompany him. I can't say anything also as I am unsure. Even if it's the former for example, knewing your mistakes is 1 thing. Getting back together again is another thing.
Is he sure he's able to withstand my attitude? Will he changed for my sake? I can't gurantee I will changed for the better, though I am trying. I mean if I were to enter into another relationship, will the same thing happen between us will not happened to my current relationship? I really don't know. Sometimes there's things which is hard to changed. I know it's bad of throwing my temper, wanting you to become a part of me & stick like a super glue. I am already trying to cut down, but that doesn't mean it don't exist. It might exist 1 more time if I am with him again.
Maybe for a fresh start, you can bear with it. How about the long run? If cannot stand it again, dump me one more time? Not only you need to changed, I need to changed also. It takes 2 hands to clap. I felt you are just wanting me, bcuz of wanting me. I am not going to give in so easily.
I knew sms is hard to explain everything. I will not be as heartless as him. I will give him & myself a chance in meeting up 1 day. Not so soon as he requested. I shall make the date, not him. I will not say any ugly words & it's not about patching up but clarfiying things. I want him to feel gulity. If things does not turn out the way we wanted, best still let's be strangers again.
I MUST BE STRONG, FIRM & HOLD MY STAND
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