I know I should not feel any pain for him again, as our status is different now. I can't help but feel a bit of it at this time.I don't wish him to be unhappy. I want him to live happily, safe & sound. Even if he really told me he's getting fine on the next realtionship, I know I will be sad (Bcuz he found a new one) but I will be happy as well (He's living happily) Life is not only about love, but surround with lots of things that needs our attention also.
I won't hate or detest him. I only remember the good things about him. What if I hate or detest, will it bring him back to me? Nope, it won't at all. It will only causes more unnegative thinking in my mind & the more I think why I deserve this way, the more hatred I will bring in my heart & become very unhealthy. Maybe its bcuz I do still love him & reminicise on our good times. I don't think I am that noble if he treated me very badly in the past, just like my 4th ex stead, Humph!!!!
Sometimes when I am thinking of his good, I will think of his bad suddenly, especially why he can dump our relationship & get into a new one so immediately? On the good side, he's doing nothing wrong as he & I are no longer together, On the bad side, he's that heartless as he should know very very clearly how I feel for him.
No matter he's happy or unhappy, I should have let him go. The both of us can no longer be with each other. I suddenly find it so hard to be with him again, even if he request to patch back. It will no longer be the same & starting afresh can be so scary. Now I will just enjoy my single life, do as much things as I can or like.
JIAYOU!!!
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