Dating Fiesta 2010'

For those of you who had read the newspaper & listen to the radio, there's a 'Dating Fiesta' - It's A Date at Suntec City Convention Centre (20th Feb - 10am to 9.30pm)

It's for the "Singles" to mingle & make new friends =) There's lot of activities that you can choose from, but of cuz you will need to pay a fee for it, unless it's those "STAGE PROGRAMMES" that is free hehe... I was very very keen to participate in it & I even wanted to join the whole day package! I guess it must be real fun, meeting & clicking with strangers.

I had never join in this kind of acitivities before & decided to give it a try. I am plucking up my courage to do that. I should be proud of myself haha... I don't mind whether at the end of the day, am I able to get any new contact, it's the fun process which I will be experiencing it & exposing myself. It's a brand new me, trying to hook up with this stuff.

BUT...

Out of a sudden, I changed my mind. Should I join or should I not join? Am I really sure that I will get used to these kind of activities? I am more of a quiet rather then active person. What's the main purpose in joining it? Yup, making friends of the opposite gender or even the same gender as well. Do I need to go to this extent? I don't mind making friends, but is this the suitable way for me?

Maybe it sounds a bit desperate, feels like looking for guys in such a way like that. Well, this is not the main reason that I am hesistating. I.... I... suddenly think of "Him". Is it fair that we are not being together for 3 months only & I can act as if nothing happens, going for this sort of dating games???

Of cuz I don't mean participating in these acitivites, will immediately find a Mr Right & step into a relationship. Somehow I just feel it's not right in doing this, for the time being at least. I know I am being foolish saying these things cuz I & "Him" are no longer together. Both of us has the rights to date another person, why should I & he care about each other feelings when we wanted to find someone new?

He has find "Michelle" for a short period of time. Why can't I? NO. I don't wanna do this! If 1 day, I really ever step into a new relationship again, be sure I truly love the guy & not for other reasons that is either related to him or others.

LOVE is tiring for me now. I had got enough of the sweet & bitterness...