An Active Sunday

One of my new year resolution, is to exercise at least 3 times a week. It's the last day of January & it's only my 1st exercise haha... Okok, I know I didn't fulfill it. I will try my very best to control this laziness aspect =p This time round, I walk & run big steps. My destination was the Dover Mrt Station. I love the sweat in exercising!

When I reached Dover & make a u-turn back to my home area, I purposely walked in to Ghim Moh estates. I saw an old auntie hailing taxi in a different way. How different it is?

Let me tell you, you will defintely laugh it off hehe... Usually when we hailed a taxi, one of our hands is placed horizontally with 5 fingers shaking. This auntie placed her hand vertically up & point 1 finger to the sky, shaking it. Amazingly, the taxi stopped in front of her haha...

Meet up with Claudia & Elaine in the noon. We went to Lot 1 (CCK) 1st, as Elaine wanted to purchase the spectacles. It's a very late birthday gift for her, paisay... Just walk around for a while & next we proceed to Far East Plaza. I only bought 1 blink blink shirt (See the picture), can go clubbing de, chio chio haha... The girls bought their new clothes as well.

Next we proceed to Suntec City for our dinner in Tony Roma (Famous For Ribs). I got a 30% discount & the meal is on me.  I don't know how should I thank them, for being there with me when I am feeling down (During the breakup of me & Louis).

Without them, I think I don't know how will I react that time. Thanks Girls! I really love you! I hope they are satisfied with this hearty meal =)

I also bought a bag from Charles & Keith (See the picture) Chio right? I don't have this kind of bag before hehe... I like it a lot! Thanks to them for helping me to choose the clothe & bag. Its's indeed very nice! Just in a day like that, I had spend $250 =x But it's worth it as I am happy hehe...

Good Morning Saturday

Slept at 2am+ yesterday & woke up around 8.30am, as I want to watch CH56 "Hai Pai Tian Xin" at 9am. This show is acted by 'Luo Zhi Xiang & Rainie Yang'. It's a light hearted funny love show. I fall in love with it, when I watched the 1st episode hehe...

Every month, I will make a trip down to 2 temples. One is the "Guan Yin Temple" at Bugis & another one is "Buddha Tooth Relic Temple" (BTRT) at Chinatown. I make a trip down to the latter today, which in the meantime, I wanted to purchase an auspicious item. (Take a look at the picture)

I always got a lot to say, to the deties. Whenever I am there, I feel calm & can pray sincerely to God. I had the fate with "Buddha" (This is what the geomancer told me). I felt it's kinda true, cuz I had make a wish before, hoping I can find a boyfriend. From then, I found Louis. Well all is history now... =x

Chinatown is fully packed with people. Especially when 'Chinese New Year" is coming soon, there are more things to sell & so much things to see. What I do is snap & snap pictures haha... Don't know why I start to fall in love with Chinatown. It's supposed to be a place suitable for old people. But I just feel happy to be there, maybe its bcuz of the tradtional things & food at hawker centres.

Felt a bit sianz, roaming around in Orchard area liao hehe... =p I think I wanna plan an outing during March, either to Sentosa or Bottle Tree Park or any other parks. Everytime shop & shop also boring. Shall find something peaceful =)

A Meet Up With Neighbour/Pri School Mate/Best Friend (Part 2)

Seema & I meet each other at the Tanjong Pagar Mrt station. That's a town area for the working adults, who are dressed in nice & proper office suits. I am not that familiarise with the surroundings, so she need to lead the way. In the meantime, she also need to retrieve some stuff in the office.

Whoa... The office looks nicely decorated! Everything looks so brand new & clean. Actually they just moved in not long ago, from Bugis to here. This company occupied 4 storeys together, about 500 employees. Oh My God! This is such a big company!

Seema has changed a lot. In the past, she looks a bit plumply. But now, she become slimmer & the way she talks, sounds so different. Her voice is gentle, voicing good courtesy & politely. Imagine we didn't meet up for so many years, there's so much difference in us, be it the looks or the way we present & talk to each other. Now she's taking up her "Master" course. She's still so good in her studies. For me? Stop at ITE is enough liao haha... I really really missed her & missed our childhood days. Now we finally meet up, of cuz I feel happy =)

We ate in a Japanese restaurant. Take a look at my Ramen & Gyoza pictures. Don't drool =p While eating, we also chit chat as well. I believe there's a lot a lot for us to catch up. But too bad, her boyfriend wanted to meet her up for a movie & she got no choice but to leave early.
I felt a bit dissapointed, not angry. It;s been 10 yrs + we didn't met & now we are standing right in front of each other, we can talk much much more. Well, I do understand as she has explain to me once again after we left our own way. Not to worry, she promise me she will come to Holland Village 1 day & we shall meet up again.

We left around 9.10pm but I don't wish to go home that early, so I decided to head down to Esplanade.

Ya, it's boring being alone, but I still want to go =p There's a free Jazz concert nearby the sea area. I sit down & listen for a 10 mins like that. Soothing music to the ears, so relaxing. After that, sit down for a while at the seats near the sea there.

Suddenly feel a bit emotional, thinking why am I so alone? If he's still by my side, I wouldnt become alone. Why he leave me just like that, sigh... I do felt peaceful & calm when I am facing the sea. I will want to go there again & there are some nice pubs as well hehe... =)

A Meet Up With Neighbour/Pri School Mate/Best Friend (Part 1)

It's been 10 years + we didn't meet up until now. Scary isn't it haha.... She's none other who is my neighbour/primary school mate/best friend "Seema" =)

One look at her name, she's not a Chinese for sure. She is so called Indian but not really an exact Indian. I also don't know how to say haha... As mentioned above, she got 3 roles in my mind. Let me do a brief description & take a journey down to our childhood days hehe...

Neighbour : -

Actually she is not my real neighbour, but her grandparents instead. Since K1, she has been taken care by her grandparents & so we knew each other lor. We were in different class, but we had a chance to see & played with each other since we are just 1 door apart only.

She has curly hair & big eyes while I got small eyes & short hair haha... We used to play almost everyday, once we came back from school. How I wish she is my real neighbour, so we can be together always till we grow up.

Remember the show "Power Rangers"? She loves pink - Kimberly & I like yellow - Trini. We always act as 1 of them, kick our legs & punch our hands at each other, exercising our fighting skills haha... Well, we do it at the corridor area, as house is too small for us to jump around =p

Other then that, I love to play recorder, blowing sounds out from my window, to let her hear how well I played. If she heards it, she will played it in her grandma house. Though we didn't see each other in person, but we do enjoyed it & smiling happily on our own.

We don't communicate by phone, whoever wants to play, just knock on the door as our door are usually open & can see clearly from inside. If we need to study & can't come out to play, just played the recorder & we will know we are missing each other.

We like to share our tidbits together. During Chinese New Year, we even played those crackers (Fire Sparkle & those tiny white round circle stuff that you throw at the floor & a "Tiak" sound will sound out" )

Primary School Friend/Best Friend : -

We attended the same primary School "Tanglin". Her studies are superb! She was always in "A" class while I only had the chance to be in "B, C or D". I never get into "A" class at all =x She's the kind of girl who are active & quiet at times. I belong more in the latter.

How I wish I can be in the same class with her,so we can studied together. Compared "A" class to other classes, they are much more clever & needless to say, I am a bit slow & stupid in studies.

I do feel inferior, but she didn't look down on me & we are still "Best Friends". When she encountered difficulties in her Chinese (Yup, she took Chinese not Indian lanuguage), she will asked me or mum for help.

When I met difficulties in English or Maths, I also asked for her help too. Thumbs up for learning Chinese language, as it's not easy for her race. She has the courage & confidence to learn it, so brave of her!

Most of the time, her results were in A & B, hardly got C. Imagine her Chinese language got A or B, very clever liao loh =p She's in EM1, higher Chinese leh. I am proud of her! I can say usually those students in A class are much more gentle in their actions or words. Maybe the only bad thing is proud & look down on people ba.

Under the influence of my boy classmates, they like to scold Vugular language, so I followed them. Once in a while, these dirty words will come out from my mouth. I felt digusting, especially I am mixing with such a good friend like her.

It's throwing my face like that. She's an angel & I am a devil. I can't prevent this from happening, so sometimes I do feel embarrassed when we talk to each other as she heard me scolding these dirty words before =x

Our playing times got lesser during P4, as we are fighting hard for the streaming. She's not only clever but hardworking too. Me? Lazy lor haha... Even if I studied very hard, results will not have A, the most is B =p Her studies are defintely more important then our playing times.

There are times I felt bored & wanted to play, but she's not free. I was sad & angry during that time. Why she need to take her studies so seriously, we can still play ma. That's the difference between hardworking & lazy one haha... If I am her, I think I will concentrate more on my studies of cuz.

Imagine we were in P5 or P6 liao, no more power strangers & childish stuff. We start to fall in love with boys haha... We tend to share who we like or do we have boyfriends.

She start to stay lesser in her grandma house, so we hardly had a chance to see each other. Even we knew each other home number, but we don't call each other & chit chat. Just don't have this habit, don't ask me why haha...

Other then me, she has her "A" class friends as well. Slowly, we start to drift apart. She got another best friend named "Weili". I was kind of jealous cuz whatever we engaged in the conversation, this name "Weili" will always appeared from her mouth.

She don't need to do that right? I am your best friend too. She snatch you away from me =x Now you are more closer with her & I become alone with no best friend.

There is a time she forgotten my birthday. She never forget about it, until 1 day. I didn't receive any wish or birthday gift, felt so sad & angry again. I drop my tears...

Why she forgotten? That's what I asked myself umpteen times. It's easy to remember ma. As long you remember "September" which is 9, my birth date is only 9, same same. I don't mind there is no gift at all, as long she can greet me "Happy Birthday" & I will be very happy. Sob Sob...

Okok... That's enough of the past liao, so naggy of me.Be it good or bad memories, it will not be easily forgotten. Let's move on to Part 2 now =)

Deducting Leave For Chinese New Year

16 more days to go & "Chinese New Year" is here =)

Every shopping centres has been decorated with new year items & playing new year songs to welcome the atmosphere of it. What do I expect for this "New Year"? It's defintely "Ang Baos" lor haha...

When I was still a kid during this time, I felt extemely happy as I got extra cash for savings or spend on the things I like to eat or buy. Now I do not have that kind of happiness when receiving an "Ang Bao" as I am already an adult, earning my own bacon. I guess I will treat it as a form of "Good Luck" ba hehe...

As usual, my company will be off for a week. Last year, all of my colleagues (Including Boss) act blur, by not applying leave on these days, so we can save up the leave for our other personal use haha... Luckily the M'sia branch colleagues did not realise it, as our leave forms must be submitted to the M'sia branch for recording purposes. I think they need to deduct, but we don't need =p

This year, there's no choice but need to deduct 3 days of leave =x One of my female colleague has even calculated, when is the best day all of us should start work lol... She's those type of person who believes in geomancy. Well, its better to heed the advice & the date is 23th February. Hope my GM (My Boss Boss) will allow us to start work on this day.

Thoughts Of Him‏

It's the last week of January, time really flies fast. When we are still together, I am counting down the happy days we lead. Now I am counting down the days he left me.

I don't have the intention to think of him, but there's times I can't help it. Few days ago, the thoughts of him grew stronger & I even dream of it. That's why there's a saying "Re You Shuo Shi, Ye You Shuo Meng". I guess it's the stuff (His Bike, His Name, His Favourite Food, Panda Figurines & Others) that is related to him, which I saw it when I am outside.

I don't know what or how should I put it across the matter, between him & Michelle. I guess I can only say/feel utterly dissapointed. Anyway, I do not have any rights to stop him for finding new love, after we are not being together.

To be frank, I really really still can't believe, we will end up in this way. I... I... don't wanna give up! I want to use my whole energy to fight in this battle! I don't allow him to do this to me! He should understand very clearly about the love I had for him. We were not supposed to breakup! The more I insist & fight in this no where relationship, all I get is hurt, pain & tears. There's only one word to describe "STUBBORN".

Maybe I am too possessive in our relationship that makes him suffocate. What I think is good for him, ended up it's a bad thing. Overrall, I do believe it takes 2 hands to clap. I don't wish to explain any more further information about us now. I wanna stop it, tiring...

Since this has happened, let it be. I need not waste my time dwelling on the past. What has dissapeared, will never appear right in front of my eyes again. The most important thing now, is to love & treat myself more better. I have been spending too much time on him, though I don't mean its wasteful.

Beautiful memories of us will be etched in my heart. Every relationship that I entered in (Including Puppy Love), I learned bit by bit. When there's love, there's hurt. I truly emphaise on this. Time will tell =)

The Last Day Of Work On Thursday

Yeah... Today is my last working day of the week, as I had apply leave tomorrow. I try to clear whatever I had on hand. Work is getting more tedious, defintely need to take some days off to rest. Sometimes, I felt not much difference. It's not because I don't enjoy my off day, but do see what's my explanation below : -

As my work is on independent basis, which means if I never come for the day, my colleague will not help much in my work. She has her own work to do as well & there's different pricing & expectations of each customer , which she is unsure. So I can't expect much.

If I take 2 or 3 days in a row, it's more worse. All the paperwork will be piled up like a mountain, waiting for me to clear when I am back the next day. I guess the only difference taking leave is, no need to worry about work & stay in office at the day =x

I will be slowly clearing my leave month by month. During June, I will take 7 to 8 days in a row cuz I am going to Taiwan!!! How I wish can go earlier haha... Can't wait to taste those special food & do lots of shopping & snapping. Oops... Seems like my heart has fly to Taiwan liao =p

A Wednesday Movie

When I was in the Mrt, I saw 2 girls of secondary school age, having a conversation. They are talking about the design & diameter of watches. If I am not wrong, the current trend for watches now, is those big screen ones which can see the timing clearly. In the past, its those tiny small screen, that you need to close your eyes smaller, in order to see the timing haha...

I love big screen watches & it can be masculine/feminine in the design of it, known as unisex ba. I only have 1 expenisve watch which is $200+ from 25 Hours. For the rest, its those ranging from $10 - $35. Sometimes, expensive watches doesnt mean the design are nice. The cheap one look not bad too.

There's one Levi watch which I wanted to buy it. The color strap looks unique as it's those bright & shiny one, not those dull dull de.It's round face with some jewels surrounding it. One cost $170+. I wonder should I buy it a not, but I drop off the idea anyway =p

After work, meet up with Serene & Peter (I will introduce later) at Jurong Point GV to catch Jackie Chan movie "The Spy Next Door". It's a comedy action type, quite nice to see =) Its a 7pm movie & ends at 8.45pm. Decided to take MOS Burger as our dinner, but it sucks. The rice burger was stiff & a bit tasteless. The thick fries is not that nice to eat also. Perhaps the whole food is cold, that's why. I don't think I will eat MOS Burger at a late timing again =x

Oh Ya... Let me introduce Peter. We known each other from WWAY. Yd is the 1st time we met in person. We never talk on phone or even exchange smses until few days ago, since we are going to meet up for td. We only chat in FB or exchange short emails during our active period in WWAY haha...

I don't meet up with people easily, unless I feel comfortable. 1st impression, so far so good. We can communciate well. Of cuz there are some quiet moments, but that's for sure for 1st meet up. He give us a treat in movie & even the dinner. But I am no those greedy type, I still pay for my dinner.

By the way, he's 38. We were born in the Rat year, that's why can click well haha... Reach home almost 11pm. But that's consider fast, as he has a car. Overrall, its a good day.

Busy Tuesday

Whoa... I am so so busy in my work today. All the paperwork come in non-stop. Clear 1 pile, another pile come in.

Sometimes when I see my desk, it's kind of untidy. Papers are everywhere haha... But that also means I am busy with a lot of work, unlike 1 of my colleague "Tortoise" (I give this nick to him) whose desk is so neat & sparkling clean.

All of my colleagues, except him has the least amount of work. I wonder such a person like him, can survive that long in a company without contributing much & yet can have a high pay I supposed.

On his desk, there's some feng-shui ornaments. I guess it helps to ward off the unlucky things & let the lucky things come his way. I also wanted to place it but given the untidness of my desk, even if I put the most powerful ornament, also no use.

Anyway, I will not interact with him much, unless necessary. Though mine is a small workplace, I always treat my colleagues as colleagues. It's hard to be friends, as far as I know.

Usually I am the one who receive the fax documents from the fax machine & I saw a document which I guess has been faxed wrongly to us. So coincidence, this fax document is from my ex company & the same address also.

I mean the company he is working in, has 3 to 4 branches but yet it appeared his branch. Sianz...Don't know why, since we are no longer with each other, the things that is related to him will appear suddenly. Eg The things he like to eat, his name being called out in public & appeared in TV, a person wearing his company uniform & others. It's not that I purposely think of him, but it just appear =x

Whenever I am working late till 7 to 8pm +, he'll be here to fetch me if he can. Now it's hard for me to work until this timing, even if I can't finish my work. It's dark & spooky, dogs running around. Got used to his bike for 1 1/2 yr. With transport, its defintely much faster & easier. Well, he will no longer be here to fetch me again but fetch his "Beloved Girlfriend" @$%#%

Don't worry, I am not angry. On the contrary, I am cool =)

A Normal Monday

18th January 2010' (Monday)


It's the 4th week of Jan' now, time really flies...

I am supposed to be on leave today, but I postponed it to Friday instead. For the past week, I had taken 2 days of MC when I was quite sick. Now I had recover liao, only a bit of cough sounds & runny nose. At this moment, I shall not take any cold drinks & fried food in case the viruses come back again. Long time didn't take my Vitamin C drink also, that's why fall sick easily hehe... =p

Lately I have become a bookworm, enriching myself with more knowledge by reading English & Chinese books. It's defintely not those comic types, but more towards love relationships & self enrichment. Basically I bought 3 books & I borrow the rest from library. I had misplaced my library card & I use my IC to borrow it haha... I guess it has been 3 years + or more that I didnt step into the library. Now I will become a frequent visitor there =)

Currently, my shoulder ache has dissapeared a little. With the help of my OTO PowerTap, it defintely feel comfortable hehe... Overall, exercise is the most effective solution to clear all aches & pain in the body. I promise myself that I will exercise at least once a week, but I am only saying, no action =x I dislike my lazy lazy attitude towards exercise. I must force myself liao!

Elisia ROM

Congratulations to Elisia & James on this special day of theirs, as this is a pleasant & happy day for the both of them, officially becoming husband & wife on 16 Jan 10' =)

As a friend of Elisia, I defintely feel happy for them & give them my best wishes. Every couples who is going through this final stage (Marriage) is not easy at all. This wedding ceremony takes months at least to prepare it. Everything needs to be finalised smoothly before this big day can be a successful one. Sure feel stressed stressed de haha... But no worries, after all the stress for the past few weeks has come to an end. Now it's relaxing time hehe... =p

Elaine & I are the receptionist for the day. Not forgetting that we had bought a gift for Elisia at "Precious Moment". Hope she likes it =)

Sick

12th January 2010' (Tuesday)

Since Saturday, I have not been feeling well. As I got keep some old medicine in a container, I decided to take out & eat a few of it.

Didn't feel much better, so I went to consult a doctor on Monday & have an MC on Tuesday. It's because I had took leave on Monday, so I couldn't possibly take MC on Monday ma, so took Tuesday lor haha... That means I don't need to work for 2 days, happy happy =p

But I know when I report for work tomorrow, my work will be piled up as high as a mountain, sianz... =x I guess I will not be eating any medicine for tomorrow, as most if it causes drowsiness.

I will be on my way to recovery!!! =)

A Day At Bugis & Suntec City

9th January 2010' (Saturday)

I was supposed to have my facial ,but I suddenly fall sick (A bit feverish, sorethroat, blocked nose) so I cancelled it.

Last month, I didn't go to Bugis Temple & offer my prayings. No matter how sick I am, this time I must go down there, just in case I get busy again for the upcoming weekends. I was really not feeling well, but I can still hang onto it. I pray for a divination lot about "Love" Before I pray for it, I got a initution it will be a bad one. True enough, it's a bad lot.

At that moment, my mood was calmless. I didn't have the energy to be angry or what. I just prayed very sincerely to the God & told God about the problems that happened between the both of us. I still have a very very little wish, maybe we can get back together. I know its stupid to think of this way but I still wished for it.

The "Lot" mentioned : - Trying to put out the fire by means of wood. The fire even turns bigger. One's thought dwell on 1000 other things. One day one realise that it is futile. Be quiet & calm & all will be well.

It's very very true. I should not think of it anymore. I really really didn't think much as what I did in the past. But I can't possible erase off everything all at once, so sometimes I will still think a little =x

After this, I wanted to go home & have a rest. I even rejected Jennie date at AMK hub. Sorry Girl... Next time date you out again ok hehe... =p But in the end, I didn't went home but went to Suntec City with my mum instead, as there's a cheap vaccumm cleaner $39.90 & today is the last day, so no choice lor.

End up also didn't buy cuz it's not nice to use, waste my time =x Instead of boarding the train home, we decided to take Bus No.61 as it's reaches our house bus stop, no need to walk a long distance to home. Wait for the bus at least 30 minutes, still haven come & I start to lose my patience. All the other buses that came has already appeared for the 4th time.

I don't care who is around me & I shout out "CB". I really can't stand it! Maybe I am also feeling tired & wish to go home early, but end up wait for so long......

I don't wish to wait for the Bus No. 61 anymore. I took another bus (No.145) that can reach my home as well, just that need to walk only. I wonder where is that stupid bus. Tired...

A Dream Of Him

8th January 2010' (Friday)

It's been a long time that I didn't have any dreams, until today I dream of "Him".

This dream is a sad & funny one. I shall start it now : -

He came & pack his stuff. He does not have a round face anymore, instead it become an oval face. His skin becomes very fair. The worse thing is, he resembles Jasmine Seah haha... I am doubting, is he "Louis" or other guy. He didn't exchange any words with me, except a smile. I... wanted to opem my mouth & speak to him, but I was hesistating. Anyway in the end, I did open my mouth & speak to him. The words is "How Are You?".

He did replied me & our conversation continues whether is there any chance, we can get back together again. I am the one who asked this, defintely not him. He says its impossible, since we had reached this breakup stage. He's planning to move in to M'sia & will not come back to Spore again. I was speechless & then I can't control my tears & cried heavily. I keep on saying "Sorry" as I know he don't like me to cry, but I can't control...

In the end, he left. Suddenly I saw him in the TV which is a drama show. He was with 3 to 4 guy friends lying on a bed & his head was stab with 4 syringes. He talks the most loudest! This time round, this image of him is the real him. I mean a round face of his =)

When I woke up from this dream, I realised I didnt cry in the dream, but I was crying in reality as my eyes & face is wet with my tears. I guess I have been thinking of him lately in the morning, that's why I even dream of him at night.

Can't imagine why I had this funny dream of him which looks like Jasmine Seah & the 4 syringes that his head was stabbed with. It's like no logic haha...

The 2nd Month of Our Breakup

7th January 2010' (Thursday)

This entry is dedicated to him : -

It's the the 2nd month of our breakup. There's nothing to celebrate for sure, but I will not forget the day when you left me.

Surprisingly when I step out from my house, I saw 'Ang Mo' (A Cat) at my neighbour's corridor. He's such a cutie & I fed him with some cat food. *Meow Meow* When I still can't get over you during that time, I had a heart talk with 'Ang Mo' at my house downstairs.

I understand it's a cat, not a human being. But I do not wish to disturb my friends with my sad predicament on the phone or even in person, as I know I will cry until very seriously. So I choose 'Ang Mo'. I told him how we know each other in the 1st place & how you left me.

I talked a lot, a lot, a lot with my tears flowing bit by bit.
He seems to understand me & wail his tail towards my butt, consoling me like that. This action touches me...

A cat is aren't able to give me advice or probably don't really understand what human being says, but somehow I think they can feel the emotions. 'Ang Mo' feel it & I am glad he didn't run away hehe...

God seems to know that today will be a sad day for me, so its raining very heavily in the morning. The rain are just like my tears, keep on falling non-stop.

Now you didn't leave me any glimpse of hope, all is already over & destroyed. I promised myself that I will lead my life better, even without you. Thanks for giving me all the happiness we had during our 1 yr + relationship. I believe 1 day, when we see each other, I will welcome you with a smile & not my tears.

Your New Girlfriend (Part 3)

7th January 2010' (Thursday)

Why you want to get involved with this girl? How can you do that to me when our breakup time was only a month +, not a year. How can you forget me easily & have fun with this girl? Is she really really better than me? Ya, she has a good figure, knows how to dress well, but on personality wise, can she click with you? Both you & I are on par, but she's different.

From her pics, she loves to club. Maybe she smokes also, I don't know. Do you think you & her can last? You don't belong to those clubbing & drinking person. You are more conversative. I see from her face, she's not those committed type, she is just looking for fun, not serious. You sure you wanna be with her or you just wanted to have fun as well? Why can you end up with this kind of person?. This is the girl you want to spend the rest of your life with?

If you found a sweet looking girl, I admit defeat. She's not... I know by judging her looks is not good enough. I don't know her, how can I say she's a bad person? Clubbing & smoking doesn't mean she's bad. I club too but not those wild kind. I really really don't know what's the both of you up too. I know you are a guy, you won't lose anything. But you will lose your feelings. Is it worth to lose your feelings for this girl?

By right, I shouldn't care about you anymore. But I can't as I am not as cruel as you. Though we are seperated, but I can take you as a friend as we did nothing wrong. You even dump me as friend. What can I say? Even in the last minute when you want to break off with me, you have the say. Can I don't accept the way you wanted to be? No right? I don't know why I deserve this treatment from you.

I don't hate you as you have been a nice boyfriend to me in the past. You did nothing wrong. You just want to survive more better, with fresher air. Two is too much. I don't know how should I fall in love with guys again. Time to time, they dissapointed me, They gave me hopes & yet destroy it. It applies to you too. I am grateful to my friends (Especially Elaine & Claudia) who are there for me when I needed them the most. Though I had neglected them in the past, but they didn't mind & still treat me as their close friend, give me the comfort & console. Without them, I think I will do a lot of silly things. Defintely not committ suicide, I don't have the courage. Thank you girls! I love you deep from my heart. Muack!

Oh Ya... Not forgetting to thank my god sister too. Since I broke up with you, she keeps haunting me with her incoming calls. I know deep inside, she's still thinking of her ex. Sometimes she told me her problems & I told her mine. She is there to encourage me when I am down. At least I know I got another friend who is there for me. Other then that, there's Serene, Susan, Mingli, Jennie, Meileng, Grace, Jaime... Got to say "Thanks" to them too for giving advice.

Maybe I am not ready for a relationship yet. I don't want to fall in love with any guys now, probably in the further end. Hm... I don't know. Now I will focus more on my family, my career & my friends =)

Your New Girlfriend (Part 2)

7th January 2010' (Thursday)

Though you had delete me away from your facebook list, somehow I am still able to know how have you been doing lately, The photos of your biker friends show it all.

You have been mixing with them quite often & "Michelle" will always appear in the picture. My mind is confused! You placed a shoutout before "Single = Freedom" after we broke off. How can it be when you are gaining a "Singlehood Freedom" now but yet you entered into a relationship again? It's impossible!

But I can't help myself thinking that you & Michelle are one item after seeing all the pictures which as long you are in, she's also in. There must be a reason for you to delete me from fb. Are you hiding something & don't wish to let me know? Based on my feel, its 80% you & Michelle are couples.It's still not considered the truth yet, as its based on my feel, no one has tell me about this.

This time round, I asked Celine again as I seen the both of them in the picture. Celine seems to act blur & said she still don't know who is Michelle. I was like "Hm... You & Her are in the picture beside together". Celine said "Wait. I go & check". While waiting for her reply, I was a bit suspicious of Celine.

How can she not know who is Michelle, especially the whole group of you are out together. I mean even if this is the 1st time you knew her, you couldn't possible forget her, especially all of you know that Louis & I are no longer together & a new girl has appeared, you should be more curious/attentive isn't it?

I shoot her with more questions asking" Is Michelle Louis new gf? Are they holding hands together? Is Michelle Louis pillion again? I know I seems rude evading Louis privacy, by asking Celine who shouldnt be involved in it. I don't care much, I just shoot whatever I 1 2 ask. Celine is still acting blur & said "Ya lor. I think they just started not long ago, maybe have hold hands ba. Ya, she is his pillion".

When I see this reply, my mind thinking was "Holding hands can be seen clearly. How can you be sure or not sure of this action between them & say 'Maybe'?"

I was so anxious on this question answer but yet she said a bit, don't say a bit. I was feeling a bit frustating. But I keep my cool & know I should not ask any more questions again & say Thanks for telling. Celine was ok with it & ask me to move on with life while explaning she understands how I feel as she has went through this breakup thing.

From here, I knew Michelle & Louis are an item. There's no reaction at all. I mean I didn't cry & ask why he left me & yet he can step in into another relationship easily. Maybe I already knew what's the answer like but I just insist I want to hear from other people mouth. As Celine was saying a bit & don't say a bit in the 1st place, it's not that I don't trust her, but I can't just hear from his biker friend side, I also want to hear from his best friend side. I know I am stuborn but I insist it!

I drop a message to 'Meileng' asking "I think Louis has a new girlfriend right? Don't worry, you can tell me the truth. I can take it" .She replied "Ya. The girl name is "Michelle". Heard that the both of them are going out together, but don't know official a not". I didn't even mentioned this "Michelle" name & yet Meileng has told me about this person existence. I... I... was speechless.

Your New Girlfriend (Part 1)

7th January 2010' (Thursday)

This entry is written for him :-

Before you deleted me away from your facebook (fb)list, I saw some of your Ipoh photos.

Everyone that I knew, are couples or just on their own (Singles). I pay much more attention that consists of you in the picture & I realise there's someone new & she's your pillion also. Who is she? I can only see from the tagged "Michelle *a* *P". I never saw her before & I wonder is she one of your biker friends or friends friends.

What is she doing on your bike? There's no other bike for her to sit? What's the relationship between you & her? These questions popped into my mind.

Since she's being tagged, it means she has a fb a/c. I quickly key in her name in the search box & see if I can find out anything about her. Her "Wall" was locked except "Photos". Her friends in my mutual list only contains 3 person. You were not in her list. That keeps me thinking again.

From what I see, she has a mature looking face, a good figure & knows how to dress & present herself well. Compared to her, I failed in my style of dressing & presentation. But for looks, I am defintely younger looking then her! If I knew how to dress up myself, I don't think I will lose to her. She has an old look while I had a girlgirl look. Humph.... =x

I slowly scanned through all the pictures that you & her are in. I notice there's no pictures of the both of you only, usually its with the gang. Another thing is, you & her are seperate apart in the photo, no lovely dovey poses. I guess there should be nothing going on between the both of you. I guess I am being sensitive. But it still doesn't stop me from finding out more about her through other means.

While I was online in Facebook, I saw some of your bike friends (Guys or Girls) online too. And I got the tendency to click on 1 of them & ask who is "Michelle". Somehow they will answer my question unless you told them not to.

Anyway I didn't ask everyone who is online as its awkward to do that, feeling like I am spreading the questions all over & wanted to know the answer, as if no one knows what's going on between you & I. I never want to throw my face, so I only ask one person who is "Celine" whom I can trust & she should be able to answer my question.

Surprisingly, Celine don't know who is Michelle. Guess she's really a newbie & somemore Celine was not in the Ipoh trip. I told Celine, 1 day the both of you will defintely see each other & you are able to help me to find out who is she...

Shoulder Aching

5th January 2010 (Tuesday)

Ouch Ouch! My shoulder is giving me aches & pain recently, especially after the badminton game, it got more worse. Sob Sob... =(

I applied the 'Salonpas' patch, it did helps a little. But I don't wish to paste it every now & then, I don't want to rely on this. So I bought a 'Massage Stick' from Mini Toons, at least I can use it to knock on my shoulder & back which is a bit more better ba hehe... =p

It defintely cannot be compared to a pair of hands, which is much more comfortable in the massage. In the past, he will be there to help me. Now I can only rely on myself =x

I guess I am really really really lack of exercise. Walking is not enough, I must do more other exercises. But hor, I only know how to walk & play badminton. I don't know how to swim & not good at cycling also. Jialat Me =x

Okok... I think I will want to try to help out in the househld chores (Eg Mopping The Floor) as it can stretch my muscles & won't feel so hard. Hope it will recover soon...

The 1st Monday of 2010

4th January 2010 (Monday)

Yawn... Today is the 1st Monday of 2010 & it's a rainy day in the morning.

I woke up 15 minutes earlier, how I wish I can sleep longer or better still, don't report for work haha... =p This time, I really need to board the Bus No.74 to Dover as it's heavy rain. Saw a lot of Fairfield Methodist students boarding the same bus as me. Oh ya hor... Today is their 1st day of school.

After having 1 month + of long holidays, now they are heading back to school for studies. I wonder how they feel like. So I took a peek on few of the students expression on their face hehe... 1 look tired with sianz sianz looks, 1 look very active, keep on talking non-stop, 1 look like he's smiling all the time, maybe he' s excited going back to school haha... If I were them, I think I resemble the 1st one. I have been a student before, so I knew how I feel like =p

There's two more bus stops left to reach Dover & I notice a guy who aboard the bus, asking the bus driver this question "Good Morning. Is the 1st bus in the morning?". The driver said "No". I suddenly think why will he ask this question. Does it matters is this the 1st or the 2nd? Then I joke with myself maybe the horoscope of him, say he cannot take the 1st bus or what haha... Silly Me.

Once I aboard the train, I saw something that makes my hair stand. Not digging nose or inapprioriate acts, but there's a Malay student wearing a light pink spectacles & dark pink earpiece. Oh My God!!! He's a man leh, not a woman. The spectacles looks like Elaine, a bit more bigger then hers. Can't imagine a guy like pinkie so much. Eee... =x

My whole body start to ache, especially my shoulders & right hand (Including the wrist), as I played badminton with Elaine yesterday. My 2nd finger in the middle skin also peel off a small circle, but pain leh. I put plaster also pain. Ouch Ouch & Sob Sob... Okok... I know I haven been exercising much & I already feel the ache. But funny leh, I only played 1/2 hr + only =x If I played 2 hours, then I become paralysed liao. Choi!!!

1st Day of 2010

1st January 2010 (Friday)

Yawn... Woke up at 10am like that for a while, but drop back to sleep till 1pm+. Long time didn't come back home around 2-3am liao.

Met up with Elaine & Claudia as they wanted to whip a home cooked dish at Elaine house & treat it as our dinner. From the "99 Wan to "Commonwealth-Sheng Shiong", we bought the ingredients for tonight dinner. As usual, we are surfing the internet online & chit chatting among ourselves.

Had a late dinner at 8pm+. Before we start to cook, we forgotten to take out the prawns & sotong for defrost haha... Luckily it was not that hard. 3 Ladies in the kitchen helping out here & there. It was quite fun, doing cooking with the girls. I am not a kitchen person, I don't really know how to cook, the most is eat =p

Finally the dish is out! Let's look at the dish we prepare. It's a mushroom herbs macaroni (Rectangular Shape) with hams, prawns, sotong & mushrooms. It's also topped with cheese crumbs to make it even a nicer meal. Look at the pictures & you will know what I mean =)

Oh Ya... Not forgotten to thank Elaine mum for the Teochew dish (Round Round Rice with mushrooms & .... Sorry I forget the other ingredients) & the "水饺".

Happy New Year

1st January 2010 (Friday)

Yeah... Happy New Year!!! 2009 is finally gone & here we are in Year 2010. Time really really flies...

What is my new year resolution? Hm... I didn't think much of it also. I am someone who lives day by day. Whatever comes, I just take it or throw it haha... =p

Okok... I shall be more serious now. I'll try to pen down the things that I wanted to achieve here (There's no position in it) : -

* My career will be a smooth & stable one.
* Save up more $$$ for rainy days. my entertainment, my parents, travelling around other countries (Needs is priority)
* Restrict from eating too much unhealthy food - Eg Instant Noodles, Tidbits, Fried Food.
* Exercise more often. Maybe at least 3 times in a month.
* Every month will visit the Bugis Temple & Buddha Tooth Relic Temple once
* My parents will be in good health & stay happy
* To become a more better & civilised person
* To be content/grateful in what I have.
* Stop expecting others to do what I want as it will not fullfilled at times
* Control my own temper
* Learn to be more confident
* Do/Enjoy the things I like to do
* Learn to accept advice from others
* Stop dwelling on the past
* If there's praise from people, say a "Thank You" / If there's a bad remark, walk away & ignore it

Whoa! Didn't know that I got so many to write hehe... I know some are hard to achieve it, as I really really need the patience to overcome the problems, not by saying it but puting an action as well.

Countdown In Year 2009, Welcoming 2010

31st December 09' (Thursday)

There's 1 more day to go & Year 2009 will be gone forever!!!

It's the stockcount day, so there's no billing of documents but I still got loads of paperwork need to be done. Boss treated us lunch at the "Raffles Marina" as it's near our office area. Whenever Boss starts a conversation with the employees, I would remain as a quiet person who only listens but never get involved much. The way my boss speaks, somtimes is in a proud & boasting manner. Whatever he says is always correct. I find it very fake at times =x

Reached home around 4pm +. Feeling tired & took a nap. Around 8.30pm, will be meeting up with Elaine & her friend Shanna at Clarke Quay 'The Central' to have our dinner 1st & then searched for a pub to have our drinks & celebrate our countdown hehe...

Every restaurant is having long queues here & there, but we managed to settle down at Mr Curry. I ordered 'Curry Pork Udon' &  'Oolong Tea', didn't expect it's such a big glass =p

After this, it's time for us to roam into the Clarke Quay area & search for a pub to have our drinks. As expected, everywhere is crowded with people. It's so difficult to find a seat in any of the pubs. So we remain standing most of the time, to celebrate our countdown when it reaches 12am! Happy Happy New Year!!!! Woo....... Everyone is feeling so high up!

Only around 1pm +, then we found a pub "Highlander" to sit down & rest our legs. I ordered 'Shooters' initially, but there's no shooter for the day. So I changed it to "Riz Royal". I also don't know how is the taste like. It turned out not too bad. When you slowly sipped it, the taste seems alcoholic & slowly it turns sweet. Nice Nice =)

Saw quite a few handsome "Ang Mohs". Of cuz can only use eyes to see, but cannot touch haha... But somehow there's 1 "Ang Moh" who touch my waist as when I was queuing up for the 'Ladies', I accidentally blocked the guys queue, so instead of saying "Excuse Me". He touches my waist & slowly shift me to the other side. Whoa! I feel so good hehe... =p He's quite handsome also leh *Blush Blush*

Went home around 2pm + as my eyes wanted to close... It's a fun day for sure & I am really happy to enjoy the countdown. Muack!!!